I have always wanted to be a lawyer since I was younger. My dream of becoming one had to take a backseat when I was an incoming freshman in College. Our financial status then could not meet our financial demands. Luckily, I was able to pass the Department of Science and Technology (DOST) Scholarship program. It is an academic scholarship wherein you have to take a test given by the DOST and meet the required passing rate.
But passing the scholarship also meant I had to take an Engineering / Technology course. During our time, we were provided, among others, monthly stipend amounting to Php2,200, tuition fee, book allowance and uniform allowance. As long as you meet the required average per end of each semester, you are good. Otherwise, your scholarship shall be put on hold. Which I cannot afford to happen. So I studied, hard I must say. I was able to maintain my GWA higher than the required average. And after finishing that course, I pursued another one to earn a Degree while working for a government agency.
I can still clearly remember how I cried a river before I signed the scholarship agreement. This is not what I wanted, but for that time-being, I was left with no other choice. It’s either take a different path or not be able to go to College at all. To pacify my heart-broken inner self, I accepted it as a blessing in disguise. That God sent his helpline just when I needed it most. I will be able to finish college with an academic scholarship and get a job after. After that, should I still want to go to law school, I would be able to finance myself.
Fastforward. I finished College, still working for the same government agency, got married and now have a super smart 21 month – old baby girl. I almost totally forgot about this dream until a recent incident which certainly rekindled my desire to be a lawyer.
Finally, after years of contemplating – pros and cons, what ifs and buts – I collected my thoughts and told myself, this is it! I have waited for this moment to come for almost a lifetime. I checked on schools and requirements and found out that the Legal Education Board will hold it’s first ever Philippine Law School Admission Test (PhilSAT) to all aspiring law students before they can be admitted to law schools. An exam aside from the entrance exams given by Universities. My jaw literally dropped . I was like – what the. Seriously?? What a perfect timing! As in now? This year? Huhuhu
So PhilSAT we go! I took the nationwide exam last April 16 at the University of Santo Tomas. It was a 3-hour of “please, somebody take me out of here!” exam. There are other testing centers nationwide. UST is the venue for Manila. For me, it was difficult and time – pressure(d). After the exam I literally told my parents, I just want to forget about it. hahaha but silently prayed to God that this PhilSAT will determine my future. If I pass, I’ll go to law school. If not, I’ll cross the bridge when I get there. I really don’t know what to do next should I fail.
The result came a day or two earlier that the target release date. And God has really ways of surprising us. My husband was the first one who saw this article from Rappler and informed me that I passed. My heart was screaming with so much happiness. It was a sigh of relief – truly in God’s own time.
It may have took me several years to finally take that leap of faith. What is important is that I am now one step closer to finally reaching that dream. I know it will not be easy. Working full-time while studying (full-load) , not to mention my almost 2-year old baby who equally needs time and attention, will never be easy but I will not let this chance slip-off my hands- never again! As long as I have my support group ( husband, daughter, parents, relatives, friends, workmates, bosses, classmates and most especially, our God Almighty) with me, I’ll be fine.
I know there will be some who will raise their eyebrows and will give their unsolicited advice and comments like “You’re already 31, isn’t that too old to enter law school? or you have a child, focus on her, or you won’t be able to make it trust me. You are just wasting your time. ” So I’ll save you from having a heart attack for really wanting to burst my bubble. I only have this to say “No one has the right to say what is right or wrong or what you should do or not. You are the author of your own story. Live it and create that wonderful ending you have always imagined and longed for! Set your goals high and don’t stop until you get there. After all , there is no age limit for those who dream and have plans of making that dream into a reality”
After having said all that, now signing in, Student No 2017xxxxx. I’ll be officially back to school tomorrow. Hopefully soon, I’ll have my own Roll of Attorney No. 🙂 Dream Big Aiza, dream big!